Survivorman

Why does he always look like he wants to kill himself? "I need water" he proclaims in a gravely voice. After much effort to get to the inside of the coconut, he discovers that the sucker coconut has solidified inside. Just oily coconut mush - he eats it and goes in a fake voice: Wow. And I don't even like coconuts.
"I'm exhausted. I'm hurt. I don't know where I'm going. Big chance of hypothermia." the time he doesn't spend to actually experiencing it, he talks about the impending dangers.
Survivor man drinks from the conchshell, gets bitten by bugs, eats bugs...I would not say that he's emotional man. He doesn't show much emotion, so this isn't an Emmy material, only his sad eyes reveal how really pissed he is. There are sharks, jellyfish, there's real effort and struggle for survival going on, and guess what...it's not fun! The man is not doing it for fun; just to survive, which makes it kind of depressing. Steve Irvin had fun, I've felt the passion he felt; I got excited about the animals he interacted with, even the most dangerous ones. When he got bit, he didn't show it. If he acted afraid, and went: "This crocodile looks like a real danger. That's not good.I better get away from this bastard asap" the show would not be a great show that it was....There's no humor, not even a hint of humor in Survivorman. His life is hard, he is not enjoying it, and I am not enjoying watching it. If he loved it, maybe. Otherwise, it leaves you wondering, why the hell IS he doing it???

Commonsense answers this way: "Families can discuss survival tactics. How can you get by for a week with no food or water? What about shelter? How do seemingly safe trips -- like camping or river rafting -- turn dangerous? Has there ever been a situation you wondered how you'd get out of? What did you do? Have you taken any training to prepare for dangerous situations (first aid, self-defense, wilderness training)? Would you like to? What would you do if you found yourself in one of the situations featured on the show?"
Another fear factor driven marketing. Let's imagine all bad scenarios possible and plot out our way out of it. Haven't we learned already, that every action driven by fear alone, are ways to drive us towards these very scenarios?
Your focus becomes you. I constantly feel sorry for Survivorman. He can come to my house and rest from surviving. I will provide an effortless, bug free meal, and a heavenly peaceful shelter.

Book Review The Resurrection and the Life by Brian Keene

The leather clad book filled with mystisizm before you even read it..."The Resurrection and the Life is a must read for anyone who enjoyed The Rising and City of the Dead', writes Horror World Reviews.
Well I haven't read The Rising or City of the dead yet, so I am off to a good start - beginning at the beginning. The book itself is only 47 pages long; the edition of The Resurrection is limited to 250 numbered copies and a special edition of 52 lettered copies(guess which one I've got?), all signed by the Author, Brian Keene, the artist, George Walker, and the OB himself -- that's right, there's a bloody fingerprint (or should I say "clawprint") of Ob at the very bottom of the page! You can order your copy through bitingdogpress.com.
First of all it reads very easily, you are virtually gliding through each page, and it feels like you are there at ancient times. The writing is not pretentious or overly descriptive; rather it's written in a voice of a witness, "this is how it happened".
Since I am religious I was wary to read something fictional about Jesus; I was ready for the usual exploits: a joke, a shock, the graphic violence of it, something about Mary Magdalene or unheard children. I was relieved to find nothing of the sort - in fact, Keene doesn't change the story of what I already know, that he loved Lazarus, Mary and Martha, that he knew of his fate and prayed before meeting it...And then the unquestionable fact that he resurrected Lazarus and how he did it. It just somehow makes sense that the living trying to mess with the world of dead end up in a mess...Am I making sense? When Jesus does this holy act he entrusts this act unto God; but how did it really happened? Did God speak to people back then? And other, very interesting, mind and soul tickling questions we find answered in this book, and end up with a longing to learn more...A sort of a book that any book should be: inspiring and calling...Dangling palpitating mystery like an anglerfish before my hungry mind: Like why did Judas really betray Jesus? Not just for 33 silver cents of course, but there must have been something more to it...And I am not buying the story they threw at us on TV that Jesus simply asked him to be betrayed...It had to be something deeper, a real reason, for I believe that Judas must have loved his teacher wholeheartedly...Was he secretly gay? Did he have life insurance on him? Then - what? In this book, an answer is simple and logic and obvious...
That's why this book is such a deliciously taunting treat.

New Manu Chao CD album

Entertrainment Magazine rated Manu Chao's new album "Radiolina" A, citing is as a "vivid, so gloriously provocative, the translation seems almost superfluous" L(He sings in French and Spansh) . Listen to some of his French/English tracks here http://www.last.fm/music/Manu+Chao/_/Welcome+to+Tijuana.
Quoted from Fanonite.org, who quotes from Observer: An excellent profile of one of the world’s greatest musicians, Manu Chao, a true heir to Marley and Lennon.
I really don't know about that. Only the tracks that are sang in English are actually "listenable" - others, Panik Panic and the rest on Radiolina seemed like a copy of each other, mostly reggae beats and very repetitive, almost unfinished(or...it could go on forever...until you go mad)
I did like his "King of the Bongo" and of the new album, the "Bleeding Clown" - short, but lovely tune, a little naive, simple song which I would not compare to Marley nor Lennon. Who knows? If Manu Chao sang in English, I might! Will he???

Free shoes - giveaway. Hurry! Offer ends on 5/9/7

Free. SHOES. What else can sound sweeter? Oh, only chocolate. Which you can have after the gym. Which brings us back to the shoes, of course! To enter, you have to leave a comment on a site called I Should Be Folding The Loundry (It's not my site. I swear!) from a witty Mom in Indiana.

Details:

-The winner can choose ANY pair of shoes from the Ryka website.
-In order to win, please leave a comment on this post and please share the contest details on your blog. Don't keep this contest to yourself! (if you don't have a blog, leave a comment!)
-The giveaway will end on Wednesday, September 5th at 9:00 pm. CST.
-If you end up not winning on my blog or my other blog, starting September 5th, Ryka is giving away 30 pairs of shoes a day until October 16th. That's 3000 pairs of shoes. Which officially equals shoe heaven.

Have fun and GOOD LUCK!

Dulce Le Leche Coffee Discontinued

As you know I am a big coffee addict. I wrote the Ode to Coffee. I painted it's glorious picture. But back to the summer shocker -- My Fave from Starbucks was discontinued today - Dulce Le Leche, which tasted like a sweet caramel, is now being replaced by(gasp) Pumpkin Spice. Its early Halloween in August! Let's celebrate it on the 31st of August, or? Start a Coffee Revolution, who's with me?

MC Donalds Nazi

Apparently, McDonalds has a rule of "No French Fries before 10 am". What gives? I arrived 10 min till and they refused service. McDonalds you suck!

Attracting birds!

By Feng Shui, it's good luck to attract birds to your home, so I just purchased a feeder, that looks kind of like a chinese house, you know, with the red twisted rooftop. The problem is, no bird had visited it yet.,, even know I've tried bird cake, various seeds, and bread. I've tried both white and wheat breads, and what's funny, I decided to test these breads on park inhabitants, i.e. ducks. The ducks looked quite disturbed by my sudden interest in them, since we've ignored each other pretty much forever, there was a spark of reasonable doubt in their little duck eyes. I've started with the white bread, which they took for stones and quickly moved towards the lake. I followed with the wheat bread,(fresh also), just to find a mild interest from seagulls, and then 3 little ducklings who devoured the wheat bread, which I tore into tiny crumps, ignoring the white bread like the plague. What is happenning?! Have the birds been watching Dr. Phil? Am I the only person enjoying white bread lately? Anyways, maybe I should have baked the bread for the birds, I dunno. For now, I am leaving the feeder with sunflower seeds alone. Maybe, just maybe, a bird or two will find it by accident and will spread the word. My chinese house is always open for them, 24/7.

Do NOT use Aloe Vera aftersun lotion on burns

After vacation in a hot Greece, where temperatures were near 120's, I can tell this for sure: do not, I repeat, do not use Aloe Vera aftersun lotion on sunburns! You know, the green goo in a bottle. It does seem quite cooling, but if you are sunburnt, like some of us "vacationeers", it only is going to burn, burn, burn! The ring of fire! My husband and I burned equally, I put on a wet towel on my red back, and he squeezed Aloe Vera like your Mrs Butterworths. I recovered overnight and the next day was ready for more sun, while he has developed a 'secondary burn' with all sort of blisters and had to sit "under my umbrella, ella" all summer through. I have once ordered a pure Aloe juice, so I know for sure that it is in nature quite acidic. While it may seem counterintuitive to hold off something so naturally cooling, you are actually sparing your burn acidic environment, and as a result, a secondary burn! I know, I know. There are many "home remedies" out there, the yogurt, the ice, the coconut oil, yes, even urine. My answer: old fashioned cool wet towel does the trick!

Homemade Cell Tech

I've got the recipe for homemade Cell Tech on bodybuildingforyou.com . One thing that was confusing, is that it writes as a Note: no need to load if you are using it. I checked Cell Tech's instructions, and it indeed does recommend to load/cycle every 8 weeks. Creatine cycling is nothing new, but when you combine with Dextrose, you get your muscle "force-fed", thus, a more increased muscle growth. Alas, I have started on friday, and the weekend was my "no excercise, finally!" news for my body. I wonder if it's OK to skip two days of workout, rather than one, while on Celltech, which I am taking in two servings of 20/70 total daily creatine/dextrose value. I could split it in 4 recommended servings by Jim on bodybuildingforyou.com, but you have to NOT EAT anything for about an hour after and since I started working out, I found myself in a constant state of unhuman hunger, and no protein shake is a match for it! Sorry Jim! ;-)

Flatron LG monitor - laptop compatibility

I have had a little accident recently. I was drinking something, and then I got startled(no, it wasn't an earthquake), and spilled this liquid into the guts of my laptop, burning it's screen. You can now only see horizontal lines going all over it, but at least it doesn't flicker like mad, which it used to do the first two days after the accident. I took this with a little humor, after all, it's already in the past and I can focus on quick resolution of this problem. While I was looking for an external monitor, I actually got a break from the computer which has been great for my eyes! The monitor I got was LG flatron 17" screen. I couldn't connect it at first because on the boot, the screen all of a sudden would go black and display: "Analogue going to power saving mode" message, which would puzzle me. I didn't know the screen can be this smart and actually decide on it's own when to go to "sleep" just to save me a little power. Since I wasn't greatful for such thoughtfullness, I wanted to disable this function as soon as possible. So, if you've got the same problem, here's the solution. In order to switch to an external monitor, all you have to do is type the following: "Function-F4" and poof! You'll enable the external monitor like magic.

My life is a chain of success

I haven't always thought that. In fact, I was a little self critical and abusive to myself. (As an excuse, I really thought it was "self-discipline"). Being also religious, the first half hour of my Morning Prayer goes through all the sins you can imagine...some of them implied...And I'm not saying that that is it for the morning prayer...after all, it can be modified...But to emphasize on something I haven't noticed before, there is this culture of guilt, a guilt that cannot be very healthy to one's self esteem! Feng shui brought me to this realization, and meditation that I have been practicing for the past month has helped. (recommended reading: Luise Hey) Why should we feel guilty just for wanting to be happy? A happy individual, one that truly loves him/or herself, will not abuse others. It is the weak and those who cannot accept themselves for who they are, are people prone to tyranny and degrading of others. Holy Bible says: " Love others as you love yourself". Think about it, how can you love others if you don't love yourself? Shouldn't there be seminars on how to love yourself first? How to accept your every action, put a stop to self critisizm(it is not "healthy"), and change it to understanding and loving attitude towards your best friend -- you! Giving yourself "motherly support", if you will --or, for those, whose mothers were also critical and not as supportive as you wished, a support of a loving partner.

I have met some exciting people and was introduced to Feng Shui. I loved it. And I dont just mean a house makeover. Of course, there's a science in that also, but to me the change always begins in my "life house" - inside of me. Many will argue, what "me" means and where is it located. I honestly don't know. Maybe, it's on Mars right now navigating this body with the remote control. Or maybe it is an eternal soul, which is fine with me because I'm a christian. I had missed a week of HS and after restarting today, I've got severe headdache just like before in the beginning. I found that at nighttime I am too exhausted to meditate. I am virtually already a turned off device, the moment I hit the pillow. In the morning I just like to lay down and think pleasant thoughts. Today after HS I was terribly groggy, disoriented almost, despite all the affirmations I have repeated to myself. Now I am looking for an hour during the day where I can relax and be groggy for awhile...

Well, I finaly cleaned out my fridge today - I found things from the year 2000 there. I forgot not to use bleach, so I will have to go over with vinegar. I hope its warm were you are. In here after Greece its been hard to tell what time of day it is - the city was covered with grayish fog like a blanket. Its funny, because when I was scrubbing, my face got all tense, even know I was trying as hard as I could to keep it relaxed. What is it, when you do something strenuous, that the face has to "help". These muscles are not connected in any way. You would think it was trying for Oscars. I understand that during the exercise there's a "group of muscles" you actually use in a situation that contract. The face is in connection with the brain, so maybe it's reflecting the look of it on the inside? That would be scary.
Talking about strain, don't you wish they had "good news" and "bad news" on TV...Seriously, the news these days puts people in depression. That's why, when I came back from vacation, that's 2 weeks of almost no news at all - and they showed "recent memories", a grisly episode of pizzaman blowing up, I wanted to switch to "On demand TV" - which I did.

I recieved my HS freebies

Well, it does feel nice to feel a part of a big community of like minded people on a journey to self improvement and growth! I've recieved my freebies from Bill Harris today. His new book Threshholds of the Mind and a new Making Changes Easy CD track to meditate to. And a 6 CD live seminar recordings. And a thank you note with the hotline number included. Although I have not been able to get through to the Hotline because of the "high volume call", and kept being transfered to the order department, I might try another time. Thank YOU, Bill!

Day 10 on Holo

Day 9 and 10 are similar. I've been listening to in my rocker and at first, I felt uncomfortable in my seat, felt the need to adjust. Then the similar pattern: flashing lights before my eyes, the sudden cold(and I got sunburned so my body was on fire that day, nevertheless, during the session I felt refrigerated) and finally, falling into a state of deep sleep...calling it sleep even doesnt seem right...more like, being unconscious when you're under the general anaesthesia. Complete dark blank. The next track on my mp player was Oasis which startled me and woke me up. I wasn't sleepy and felt completely refreshed. My other venue, the gym, wasn't as successful. I have overexcercised, feeling completely exhausted. My abs muscles were pulled, the pain is just immense. Whatever muscles the Stair Master has worked, looks like they never have been used in my life. (Guess I don't use stairs alot - who does these days?) There had been a complete atrophy of those muscles, I think, because I am now unable to bend my legs -- my walking is like post painful sex, slow and funny looking. Every step is a challenge and pain. I have started on Now L Glutamine capsules, and today's also the first day of ISO Protein shake, I use GF Pro orange cream flavor. It's surprisingly tasty and the texture is OK. When you mix it it becomes very foamy and rich. One thing I noticed though, that they use sucralose, very little of it, but it's not a xylithol or stevia.

Day 9

I am on Day 9 today. I am in such pain from exercise which is intense, that I can hardly walk, leave alone run or bend! Jeez! I was walking like I needed crutches today and at some point my lower back hit me like a needle. My experience with Holo: I have been enjoying it more and more. I am actually looking forward to it! I can think about anything with great clarity and calm during. A very interesting thing happened: I started seeing flashing lights in front of my closed eyes, sometimes with colors. I also always get COLD right after that, no matter how warm is in the room, so today I prepared a sweater for the session. Besides these curious factors, I am very much enjoying my sessions and I just feel like in the beginning of a wonderful journey. I have checked Wealth Beyond reason which more and more seems like a hoax to me. There's even a BLOG, (named wealth-beyond-reason.com!), of "independent" review, where the author writes: "The full version of the program provides you with rather extensive help in clearing your money blocks using EFT." This subconsciously translated to: The full version of a book which is written in electronic format and costs around $300, provides you with rather exPensive help in clearing your money out of pockets and by the way, finding about 2 programs like EFT and Abraham Hicks Law of Attraction. Just tapping into these programs, and introducing a merged product-child, Bob Doyle is the only one getting Wealthy Beyond Reason ( I simply don't see why he should get rich without a reason, not at my expense). Anyways, the author of so-called blog is so thrilled with this life-changing program that she buys an expensive Internet hosting and domain name, not to mention site design and maintenance, just so she can write "Review1", "Review2", and vogue (more vogue than Doyle's "free sample chapters") description of the program itself. Not a word on how exactly has this program affected the author's life, the whole thing is impersonal, and looks like a paid gig(which is what most of "blogs" are anyways, people plugging themselves and their, or in this case somebody elses, ideas unto a poor reader). And I say, poor reader, because EFT on its own deserves attention and the Law of Attraction is also nothing new(Abraham , Esther and Jerry Hicks, Lynn Grabhorn, Michael Losier and Joe Vitale to name a few). On my site, I write real reviews and real stories, not a bunch of ads!

Day 6 on Holosinc

It is day 6 and I have only been meditating before bedtime, because it made my senses too keen and I was having terrible headdaches(I get similar headdaches from eye pressure from intense reading sometimes) I have also started exercising 3x week, so basically the exercising is making me feel just exhausted and everything hurts...Everything! It even hurts to type this. Other than that, I have been feeling calm from meditation. I find the bells very calming and pleasant sounding, I've read it's been unpleasant for some. My husband is not willing to meditate everyday, so he's off the program, but the first time he's tried it, he reported the "first part" to be very intense and unpleasant almost, and from there on it was nice and easy and like a trip downhill.

Paris Hilton released!

I am so not surprised. What does it take to release a person from prison? Just a little nervous breakdown, that's all! Apparently, by tomorrow we should have a flood of criminals on the streets. I wish Martha knew that! Was she not a celebrity enough for the sheriff? Just another proof that the system is lenient to celebs. They can commit murders. They can drunk drive. They can run over people. Don't try that, you regular kids, even if you've seriously psychotic. You'll be medically evaluated and put in a psych ward. You'll be taught lessons better not learned. And not a chance you'll be released in 3 days!
UPDATE: since Paris was sent back to the slammer, apparently her sis visited her and gave her a script to read to View's Barbara Walters. She is a changed person now, and before was an "act". (by the way we all choose to act different roles, no matter how bad of actors we make). Now, everyone thinks that she was treated unfair because she is a "rich bitch". I beg to differ. She showed disrespect to the judge and to the system so the judge treated her the way he'd treat anyone with such attitude -- any lawyer will tell you, that's the way this cookie crumbles. You go to Court in person and on time, you show humble attitude and remorse, and then we can talk about leniency. This is an expensive lesson for Paris, but learning is what we do till we die.

Abraham-Hicks discovery

I just discovered a wonderful site, http://law-of-attraction-info.com/
From there on, I decided to follow the steps for manifesting my desires and using the Universal Law of attraction.
1. Getting clear on what I wanted: I want to start a business! What I don't want: is an office job with very boring routine and a bitchy boss. I don't want to be jobless either, depending on my husband for money. I don't want to fail. I don't want to embarrass myself in front of all people. I don't want to seem incompetent, or slow, or unsuccessful. I need all attributes of success: the website, the acetate protection, the chairs, the display signs. I need to have practice. I want a couple of merchandize ready to go, no matter how amateurish it will look at first. I know that if I don't get experience then I won't get better. "I am in the process of starting my own successful business"
2.What am I feeling? Joy, excitement, followed by fear of incometency and unworthiness.
What thought feels better? Joy, excitement, feeling proud of myself for doing what I really love to do! Doing the right thing and following my heart is a wonderful journey which should be embraced and blessed by God and people. Even if I have a few disappointments, I will learn in the process. I am in peace. What mind conceives and believes, mind can achieve. The great Law of Attraction is working for me right now, creating the right opportunities and the right timing for preparation. I am prepared to be determined, fast, focused.
3.Take inspired action.
At this point, I feel I need to draw a handmade calendar for myself with my plan of action. If it's preparation that I fear, then I have to give myself a timeline, a list of things that need to be done, and review it everynight before I go to bed. I should have a date of business "launch" so I can meditate and prepare emotionally. I also like to see things written and not to read them out loud. I found that just by reading with my eyes a few minutes everyday helps me a lot better that saying something to myself. Somehow when I say something to myself with this strange, unconfident voice, it never sinks. I can sing better than I can talk to myself.
4. Allow. Rather than going into resistance about something I don't want, or somebody who has plans for me that I don't agree with, I have to concentrate about what I do want and make 'Just Say Yes!' my slogan. "Just say Yes to the work I love". All I have to do is identify what I want, get into the state of well being from having it and then allow it to flow to me by holding my focus there.
I was guided to Wealth beyond reason from there and I feel overwhelmed. So many programs! I want to start very gradually, not rushing and not feeling greedy or obsessed with something so new. I wrote a reminder card with all the quotes and things that I liked.

I start Holosinc - day 1

Today I have received my Holosinc program. I enjoyed the rain and the bells sounds, however, they did not have the same "discovery" effect on me like I had when I first listened to them in my introductory CD. I was first sitting down on my computer chair with my head on my hands facing down, not thinking about anything. This time, I sat on a couch and felt so uncomfortable. My foot suddenly started to hurt. Then my back. I finally got up and sat on a bed. My mind was pacing from one thing to another. At some point though, I have completely lost awareness of my surroundings, and then all of a sudden a smile appeared on my face and then I started to giggle...without any joke or reason at all, I just could not stop laughing. Then it stopped. Another strange sensation that I've felt for maybe a few seconds was this energy above my nose bridge(between the eyes). I was aware of this spot for some reason, and that's when I got up and left for bedroom. Despite everything, I was completely aware of my body and of my unpleasant thoughts, and then when the DIVE was over, I thought that I was duped and that it lasted only 10 minutes or so. The same day, I let my son and my husband listen to the track also. We will share our experiences, since we're on Dive for 30 min a day for 14 days, and then we'll graduate to Immerse.
UPDATE: I've felt extreme headdache following Dive, and I also had it for a short while after the intro CD so that is not a coincidence. I'll call the support line tomorrow. I am interested if anyone else had like experiences?